Life in Italics
Raapustuksia. Scrawlings. Garabatos.
Tuesday, 25 October 2011
Back.
Well well well. Since my last post A LOT has happened. Most importanly, I've become a mother. So maybe my posts, if I manage to get this blog going again, will be around that theme. You have been warned. ;) On the other hand, I started another blog about a year ago that unfortunately still has only one post, and now I'm thinking of starting a similar one again. Aargh. But...anyway....I'm back.
Sunday, 29 August 2010
Monday, 9 August 2010
Suomalaisia sananparsia
Meilailin tana aamuna Aitin kanssa ja opin tallaisen sanonnan:
Paremp kymmena kyttyy ko yks naon nappula.
Musta se oli sen verran hauskasti sanottu etta paadyin etsimaan vanhoja suomalaisia sananparsia netista.
Tassa muutama osuva, jotka loysin osoitteesta http://sananparsia.blogspot.com/ :
Hyva tulj - ite tein. (Savo)
Se on toesinaan jouten ja toesinaan ei tie mittee. (Kuopio)
Ennen kulkee viikon turhaa ennenko kyselee piioilta tieta.
Kauan on koyha kallellaan ennen kuin kaatuu.
Jos lahtis sano Pispalan palokunta, mutta sarekkin taitaa tulla. (Hame)
Jarkki olis kyll muttei saa juaksema. (Varsinais-Suomi)
Joha mie sanoi vaikken mittaa virkkant. (Karjala)
Mika sita pittaa? sano kusijainen kun tamman raatoa veti. (Karjala)
Paremp kymmena kyttyy ko yks naon nappula.
Musta se oli sen verran hauskasti sanottu etta paadyin etsimaan vanhoja suomalaisia sananparsia netista.
Tassa muutama osuva, jotka loysin osoitteesta http://sananparsia.blogspot.com/ :
Hyva tulj - ite tein. (Savo)
Se on toesinaan jouten ja toesinaan ei tie mittee. (Kuopio)
Ennen kulkee viikon turhaa ennenko kyselee piioilta tieta.
Kauan on koyha kallellaan ennen kuin kaatuu.
Jos lahtis sano Pispalan palokunta, mutta sarekkin taitaa tulla. (Hame)
Jarkki olis kyll muttei saa juaksema. (Varsinais-Suomi)
Joha mie sanoi vaikken mittaa virkkant. (Karjala)
Mika sita pittaa? sano kusijainen kun tamman raatoa veti. (Karjala)
Sunday, 8 August 2010
A month on...ANXIETY
It's been a month since my previous post. I have spent most of my time trying to finish my dissertation. It's been a slower process than I expected and with the heat and the attention span of a 2-year-old it hasn't been that easy to concentrate.
I'm also getting to that stage where I am starting to get anxious about finding work and being okay financially. I had a job interview about two weeks ago but didn't get what would have been an interesting and amazing job that I think I could have done pretty well.
And I'm just starting to PANIC. I don't know whether in addition to looking for paid work I should try and apply for an internship somewhere, or just do some volunteer work here. That is, if I want to work in International Development, whatever the hell that means. Another part of me wants to isolate myself and just try and write a little bit more.
I get anxious when I hear about people doing this and that and living their dreams and reaching their goals. If they're people I know, I'm happy for them of course. But at the same time I worry about when I'll be brave enough to recognise my dreams and go after them. I wish I had a clear idea about what I wanted to do and just went for it.
I also get anxious when I read about devastating events in the world. Most recently I've been reading about the floods in Pakistan. I get frustrated and angry with things like that happening to a country that's already gone through so much hardship.
I want to do something but I feel helpless and -more than helpless- scared.
I'm also getting to that stage where I am starting to get anxious about finding work and being okay financially. I had a job interview about two weeks ago but didn't get what would have been an interesting and amazing job that I think I could have done pretty well.
And I'm just starting to PANIC. I don't know whether in addition to looking for paid work I should try and apply for an internship somewhere, or just do some volunteer work here. That is, if I want to work in International Development, whatever the hell that means. Another part of me wants to isolate myself and just try and write a little bit more.
I get anxious when I hear about people doing this and that and living their dreams and reaching their goals. If they're people I know, I'm happy for them of course. But at the same time I worry about when I'll be brave enough to recognise my dreams and go after them. I wish I had a clear idea about what I wanted to do and just went for it.
I also get anxious when I read about devastating events in the world. Most recently I've been reading about the floods in Pakistan. I get frustrated and angry with things like that happening to a country that's already gone through so much hardship.
I want to do something but I feel helpless and -more than helpless- scared.
Thursday, 8 July 2010
Visc a Barcelona!
I flew back to Barcelona yesterday night. It has been a soft landing so far.
On the plane, in the row behind me, sat three extremely conversational elderly Catalans who immediately made me practise my Catalan skills as I eavesdropped on their conversation and reminded me of my students as their practised their English phrases.
Spain´s football World Cup quarter finals game against Germany took place while I was in the clouds somewhere between Gatwick and El Prat , but as soon as we landed, the stewardess told us the news of Spain's 1-0 victory. The passengers cheered and dug into their pockets for their mobile phones even faster than usual to check the score for themselves, chattering away happily on their way out into the terminal building.
I was met at the airpot by the Anthropologist, who made it very clear that he was happy that I had come to stay indefinitely. He joked about me looking scared and worried on my way out of the baggage claim, which I denied with a laugh. Then it occurred to me that he had thought the same of me when I first moved into the flat where we met, so although I don´t think his observation was exactly true (or maybe a little), it can't be a bad start to this new phase in our lives.
We took the airport bus to Plaza Catalunya, which, along with Plaza Espanya, was closed because of World Cup celebrations. The traffic was embellished by Spanish and Catalan flags (the goal scorer Carles Puyol being Catalan) and plenty of honking and joyous shouting filled the streets and squares. It was't as crazy as it must have been in Madrid, as the Anthropologist pointed out, what with the anti-Spanish sentiment and separationist politics in Catalonia, but there was clearly an atmosphere of festivity and happiness in the streets.
It was then that I was reminded again of the beauty of the summer nights in Barcelona: warm, humid air mixed with nauseating smells of sewage, people wandering idly on their own or in noisy groups, sitting in the squares drinking cheap beer and eating ice-cream until the wee hours of the morning.
About a year ago I left Barcelona and its filthy alleys and romantic squares, ready to try something different for a while. I am sure I will face moments where I long for the tranquility, peace and the fresh air of somewhere a bit further north again, but I'm now in Barcelona, ready to embrace it in all its frustrating, endearing quirkiness, ready to live my life here and live it as fully as possible. I am ready to dive into the deep end of Barcelona.
And Spain winning the World Cup on Sunday would just make this start even better!
On the plane, in the row behind me, sat three extremely conversational elderly Catalans who immediately made me practise my Catalan skills as I eavesdropped on their conversation and reminded me of my students as their practised their English phrases.
Spain´s football World Cup quarter finals game against Germany took place while I was in the clouds somewhere between Gatwick and El Prat , but as soon as we landed, the stewardess told us the news of Spain's 1-0 victory. The passengers cheered and dug into their pockets for their mobile phones even faster than usual to check the score for themselves, chattering away happily on their way out into the terminal building.
I was met at the airpot by the Anthropologist, who made it very clear that he was happy that I had come to stay indefinitely. He joked about me looking scared and worried on my way out of the baggage claim, which I denied with a laugh. Then it occurred to me that he had thought the same of me when I first moved into the flat where we met, so although I don´t think his observation was exactly true (or maybe a little), it can't be a bad start to this new phase in our lives.
We took the airport bus to Plaza Catalunya, which, along with Plaza Espanya, was closed because of World Cup celebrations. The traffic was embellished by Spanish and Catalan flags (the goal scorer Carles Puyol being Catalan) and plenty of honking and joyous shouting filled the streets and squares. It was't as crazy as it must have been in Madrid, as the Anthropologist pointed out, what with the anti-Spanish sentiment and separationist politics in Catalonia, but there was clearly an atmosphere of festivity and happiness in the streets.
It was then that I was reminded again of the beauty of the summer nights in Barcelona: warm, humid air mixed with nauseating smells of sewage, people wandering idly on their own or in noisy groups, sitting in the squares drinking cheap beer and eating ice-cream until the wee hours of the morning.
About a year ago I left Barcelona and its filthy alleys and romantic squares, ready to try something different for a while. I am sure I will face moments where I long for the tranquility, peace and the fresh air of somewhere a bit further north again, but I'm now in Barcelona, ready to embrace it in all its frustrating, endearing quirkiness, ready to live my life here and live it as fully as possible. I am ready to dive into the deep end of Barcelona.
And Spain winning the World Cup on Sunday would just make this start even better!
Saturday, 19 June 2010
The beautiful game
Football truly is The Beautiful Game.
I am neither a fervent follower of any league nor a fanatic supporter of any team, but when the bigger tournaments are on, I get pretty into it. I have a few favourite players, a few favourite teams, and I more often than not root for the underdog.
This year's football World Cup has already proved to be a great distraction from working on my dissertation. But more importantly, it has proved that football truly is a beautiful game and, as cheesy as it sounds, it brings people together.
The other day I was huddled around my computer screen with a Brit and a Nigerian, watching Uruguay play France. A couple of days later, I went into a pub run by a Scottish man in the centre of Norwich to watch Mexico play France. The pub was full of Mexicans with their flags, face-paints and horns. All the non-Mexicans were included in the fervour of the game and those who had nothing green, red and white on them were embellished with face paint in those very colours. Mexican snacks were served on the house at half time. A day later, I was crammed in a very small living room, watching from a very small screen as England played Algeria. There were almost 20 of us representing at least 11 nationalities, all equally thrilled by the game.
I'd say that's pretty damn beautiful.
Friday, 18 June 2010
"¿Por qué eliges mutilarte?" La historia de John Foppe
Un articulo que me paso el antropologo. :)
John Foppe, hombre completo
John Foppe, hombre completo
"Nací sin brazos, pero no me pongo límites por eso"
Tengo 39 años. Nací y vivo cerca del Misisipi. Soy asesor: ayudo a transformar sueños en resultados. Estoy casado y tengo una hija de tres años. ¿Política? ¡Basta de ideas discapacitantes! Soy creyente. Eres un discapacitado si te resistes a sortear barreras
¿Cómo le doy la mano?
Apriéteme el hombro.
Encantado.
Igualmente.
¿A qué edad supo que le faltaban los brazos?
Al ir a la escuela, a los cinco años, me di cuenta de mi diferencia. Y sentí angustia y miedo, vergüenza y autocompasión.
¿Qué fue lo más duro?
Intentar acoplarme unos brazos ortopédicos: me daban calor, peso, era espantoso.
¿Nació así?
Sí. Y con malformaciones en la cadera y escoliosis, aunque esto se fue corrigiendo.
¿Cuál es la causa de su falta de brazos?
Desconocida. Somos siete hermanos, y sólo yo nací así.
¿Qué le decían sus padres cuando volvía triste del colegio?
"No eres menos que nadie por no tener brazos". Pero yo sí me tenía por menos y me autocompadecía... Y no hacía nada por mí.
¿Nada?
Como despertaba compasión, la utilizaba: tenían que hacérmelo todo, desde vestirme por la mañana. Pero sucedió algo...
¿Qué pasó?
Quise ir a las colonias del colegio. Y mis padres decidieron aplicarme el amor rudo.
¿Qué es el amor rudo?
Iría a las colonias si demostraba que podía hacerme cargo de mí mismo. Y ordenaron a mi hermano, que me vestía cada mañana, que a la mañana siguiente no lo hiciese.
¿Y logró vestirse usted solo?
No. Y me desesperé. Mi hermano, pobre, quiso ayudarme: mi madre se lo prohibió. Me dejaron solo en la habitación, desnudo...
¿Y qué hizo usted?
Puse los calzoncillos en el suelo, coloqué un pie en cada agujero, me tumbé de espaldas, levanté las piernas, dejé que la prenda cayera en mis muslos, me arrastré hasta una cómoda y usé sus salientes para subírmelos…
Vaya gesta.
Yo gritaba, lloraba, suplicaba ayuda... Sentía mucho miedo... Me veía perdido. Quedé en el suelo en un charco de sudor y lágrimas... Fracasé, y algo se me rompió por dentro..
¿Qué se le rompió?
La fe en la vida...
...
Pero luego reaccioné decidiendo que si había sido testarudo para no hacer nada, ¡ahora lo sería para actuar! Y así abandoné toda la rabia y la pena a un lado..., y actué.
¿De qué modo?
Pedí calzoncillos con gomas, y ropa fácil de ponerme, y un reloj de pulsera con gomas...
¿Dónde se lo puso?
En el tobillo, ¿ve? Y me adiestré en usar los pies para todo.
¿Qué es capaz de hacer con sus pies?
Escribir, dibujar, pintar, pasar hojas, cocinar, usar cubiertos, coger un vaso, conducir mi coche, llamar por teléfono, rascarme la cabeza..., ¿ve?
Sí.
Pero todo esto no tiene mucha importancia.
Hombre...
Lo que importa es dejar de ser espectador de las cosas: pasar a ser actor protagonista.
¿Y cómo vivió su adolescencia, cuando quería ligar?
Ellas querían ser sólo amigas. Y sufrí... Pero luego me relajé y decidí disfrutar de las cosas... Y entonces llegó mi pareja, Christine, igual que Meg Ryan: mírela en esta foto...
¿Qué le gustó a Christine de usted?
Mi amor por la vida. Ella tenía un novio culturista, guapísimo..., pero muy quejica, que odiaba mojarse el pelo... Cuando Christine vio como yo me tiraba de cabeza al mar...
¿Cuál es su lema, John?
Ser antes de hacer, hacer antes de tener.
Explíquemelo.
La gente suele decirse "¡no tengo dinero!" o "¡no tengo tiempo!", y de eso deduce "¡no puedo hacer nada!". Y de eso concluye "¡no soy nada!". ¡Qué error!: es justo al revés. Convéncete de esto: ¡sí "eres"! Y con ese motor interno, el resto va viniendo.
Pero cuesta "ser".
Porque todos somos discapacitados... anímicos: "no puedo", "es imposible", "no hay nada que hacer", te dices. Y, convencido de que tienes razón, te acomodas en esa idea.
A veces pienso así.
¿Y crees tener razón en esto? Entonces eres un discapacitado... con dos brazos.
Vaya.
Si das por inamovibles tus límites, eres tan discapacitado como yo cuando creía imposible ponerme los calzoncillos por mí mismo.
Denos un consejo a los discapacitados.
Elige ser. Elige quién serás: ten una visión y conviértete en tu propia visión. ¿Cuál es tu excusa para no hacerlo, dime? Pregúntatelo. Yo no soy un gurú de esos, no: ¡yo sólo hablo de lo que sé porque lo he vivido!
¿Y qué sabe, al final?
Que fracasar consiste en no intentar demoler barreras. Así que en vez de repetirte "¡no merece la pena intentarlo!", repítete siempre "¡merece la pena intentarlo!".
¿Sean cuales sean mis circunstancias, mis límites físicos o materiales?
Aunque pueda parecerte que no, ¡siempre hay una alternativa! La realidad es lo que tú creas con tu percepción de las cosas. ¡Crea una realidad nueva, pues! Porque tú puedes elegir tu manera de ver el mundo. O sea, ¡puedes elegir el mundo! Pero sólo tú, nadie por ti. ¿Por qué eliges mutilarte?
Si volviese al vientre de su madre y pudiese elegir nacer con brazos, ¿lo haría?
¡No! Yo soy este que soy.
VÍCTOR-M. AMELA - La Vanguardia 18/06/2010
http://www.lavanguardia.es/lacontra/lacontra.html
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